I WILL ATTEMPT TO OPEN THE EYES OF YOUR UNDERSTANDING AND THE FOUNDATIONS OF YOUR PERSON THROUGH THE “WAY – TRUTH- LIFE”
Well here I am 80 years or as my friend Arthur would have said, “20 from 100” and after 69 years of what I call God in my thoughts I am still learning how to stay with Him. No I know who He is and who I am and have come to understand the meaning of the field and the great pearl hidden there. It has taken much of this time to get the understanding that I am the right person that has used the wrong means and made the mistakes, but I have learned that as the right person I can make midstream corrections. I found the real me, the right person, how I found me is somewhat of a mystery and I have forgotten when and where that knowledge began. Yet it has totally made the central difference in my life and journey but I do know it started early. As a child I was aware that there was something within that protected and led me in innocence and sensibility which I in my flesh thought made me a coward. So I struggled and lived in somewhat guilt but the “me” the innocent me listened to the g uiding presence. At age 19 I was in the Navy and still very innocent, while in boot camp I began to experience life from the external flesh or as scripture says, “the outward man”. I will never and have never forgotten the night in San Diego when after a certain instance standing on a street corner the inward voice said to me audibly and clearly, “You have Lost your innocence”. I knew then and there I had begun a double life; the real me and the outward person I would be known as. I had now began living from the tree of knowledge and as my own judge. But what would keep me and allow me to make corrections was still within and I could make connection in my time of need and despair.
For the next 50 years I would come to depend on the inner voice, the inner man and the intuition, I knew there were two of me, one I trusted and the other I disdained and at times hated.
Yes I was a Christian, I was a minister and pastor looking for a relationship with God, filled with the Spirit, spoke in other tongues, cast out demons and healed the sick but lived in a struggle, a battle within me BUT. I now began to identify with the apostle Paul in Romans 7.18 I know that my selfish desires (Eros) won't let me do anything that is good. Even when I want to do right, I cannot.
As the apostle said, Rom 7:24 What a miserable person I am. Who will rescue me from this body that is doomed to die?
Here is a real revelation into myself, the person I really am; “who will recue “ME” from this flesh person that “WILL” die? The “ME” is the real me, the spirit within, the inward man. Rom 7:25 Thank God! Jesus Christ will rescue me. So with my (divine- spiritual understanding) mind I serve the Law of God, although my selfish desires (Eros) make me serve the law of (acquire, posses, control,) sin
Maybe we can clarify this a bit further, as I said earlier I had come to despise myself for my behavior and actions yet for as much I hated this it seemed I was helpless in conquering. Through this there was a battle constantly raging within, a battle of the good guy against the bad guy but they were the same person so I thought!
The questions then I have to ask:
I am writing the following because it has been my innermost desire to find the deepest truth and understanding of God as father and creator. Why this?
THERE IS NO ROOM AT THE INN
“A Royal Guest has come to room here”
The Gospel message will substitute faith for frustration and hope for hopelessness. It will take you by the hand and guide you in the journey God has marked out for you through the "valley of the shadow of death" and bring meaning and power to your existence.
There is an unspoken truth which keeps people under the thumb of religious control, why unspoken? On the day you are enlightened to this your eyes will be opened and your entire BS ( believe system) and life will be changed and your motivation and consciousness will mature. In the Agape paradigm we taught the two loves and what motivates us, or from what love are you operating from? We found that the two prevalent motives are determined by what we love, one is Eros and the other Agape.
Man shall not live by bread alone, but by every word that proceedeth out of the mouth of God. Every Scripture is God-Breathed American Christianity has had The Word preached, taught, spoken, shared, and prophesied.